Monday, September 26, 2011

累了!!!

Many of my friends call me to give up for such of sucks guy... I can't make decision to let go of him and forget him and became back to friendship... At first when we just broke up, I miss him so so much... but now lesser... but still... Every morning I woke up I will think of him, the memory between us, (1 week memory only)... Sometimes will 傻笑...

I don't know what are he thinking about... Wanted to ask him... Am I really no chance anymore? Have you miss me?... I really should or shouldn't wait for him??? Can't put down this 3 weeks memory and feeling but now already 2 months from the day we break off... But one thing for sure... I will never cry because of you....... !!!

Maybe what my good friend told me is right and just me myself don't want to accept it! I blind my eyes... I close my ears and heart... to escape from the truth... I don't want to accept the truth even though I promise him 'if he does not want back to the relationship' I will respect his decision and must let go...him...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Question mark ' ? '

The first answer for all question for myself is 'idk'

How to become better to communicate with others?
Ans: Idk...

What kind of person / personality I want to be?
Ans: Idk...

What style I want?
Ans: Idk... I don't have any confidence on any style... I prefer to be sporty or elegance...

What kind of guys I like?
Ans: Idk... have once in a relationship(3weeks) but not really satisfied with what I want... I know there is nobody can be perfect...

What kind of future life you want?
Ans: Idk... but not to be too rich nor poor... Just simple and happy life...

And many many question more... for now I thinking of these few question...
Sorry girls... I need a break... to find myself back... I think I have lost something in myself... need to find it back... I realise I'm not who I'm last time... I had change to the worst... I already forgotten my principle that I use to remind myself last time...

Now I love to go to Mr. Peter class... maybe in his class I can found somehow to be better and found back myself and also he inspire me to have a better life and create a vision for the future...

In this 6 month period I'm so so sorry for all my bestie... I'm busying on working and also think to get more money to get what stuff I wanted to buy... I don't want any more to get money from my parent to buy any unnecessary thing...