You're always in my heart

First of all, THANKS TO KEN~
You gave me such a sweet memory...

Because of your left,
I learnt a lesson...
You teaches me many many things within a week...

Because of you,
I saw my the another part of myself...
I started to improve myself more...
You had bright my life awhile then...

Life had to go on without you...
It is tough for me...
Searching for the light...
Searching for myself in the dark... bit by bit~

I will always remember you inside my heart...
Lastly, I Love You <3

I'm AFRAID~ (TT~TT)

First of all I'm really sorry...
That I always send those kind of message to you....
That was because I really miss you....
I couldn't stop ......
I lost control...
Yes I admit!
I do still have the feeling...
To be with you!
I'm afraid to lost you...
Even though, I lost our relationship...
But I don't want our friendship also couldn't make it...
I know I'm annoying... I'm irritating....(of those stuff)
Sorry just want to keep in touch with you...
Just want to keep close relationship with you...
Sorry~ and please don't ignore me...
Please forgive me...

累了！！！

Many of my friends call me to give up for such of sucks guy... I can't make decision to let go of him and forget him and became back to friendship... At first when we just broke up, I miss him so so much... but now lesser... but still... Every morning I woke up I will think of him, the memory between us, (1 week memory only)... Sometimes will 傻笑...

I don't know what are he thinking about... Wanted to ask him... Am I really no chance anymore? Have you miss me?... I really should or shouldn't wait for him??? Can't put down this 3 weeks memory and feeling but now already 2 months from the day we break off... But one thing for sure... I will never cry because of you....... !!!

Maybe what my good friend told me is right and just me myself don't want to accept it! I blind my eyes... I close my ears and heart... to escape from the truth... I don't want to accept the truth even though I promise him 'if he does not want back to the relationship' I will respect his decision and must let go...him...

Question mark ' ? '

The first answer for all question for myself is 'idk'

How to become better to communicate with others?
Ans: Idk...

What kind of person / personality I want to be?
Ans: Idk...

What style I want?
Ans: Idk... I don't have any confidence on any style... I prefer to be sporty or elegance...

What kind of guys I like?
Ans: Idk... have once in a relationship(3weeks) but not really satisfied with what I want... I know there is nobody can be perfect...

What kind of future life you want?
Ans: Idk... but not to be too rich nor poor... Just simple and happy life...

And many many question more... for now I thinking of these few question...
Sorry girls... I need a break... to find myself back... I think I have lost something in myself... need to find it back... I realise I'm not who I'm last time... I had change to the worst... I already forgotten my principle that I use to remind myself last time...

Now I love to go to Mr. Peter class... maybe in his class I can found somehow to be better and found back myself and also he inspire me to have a better life and create a vision for the future...

In this 6 month period I'm so so sorry for all my bestie... I'm busying on working and also think to get more money to get what stuff I wanted to buy... I don't want any more to get money from my parent to buy any unnecessary thing...

Ur mother fucking didn't teach u ar???

Damn la... today after work we a group of staff Sembonia walk to LRT got Me, Keong, Keong's brother and his friend (Chee Seng), Apple, and Kenny... total of us is 6 people... Keong and his friend walk in front so we just chase up at the back...

Suddenly, I saw Keong and his friend walk backward and then they got beaten by a group of kids around 16 and above and fight each others... there are about 5 to 7 people... I had a shock and do not know what to do so I just shout 'That enough' the stop for a few minute and then start again beat them.... Keong got hit back and his friend did not... I wanted to help them but I didn't know how to help... Keong one people hit 3 kids there and his brother also got help him... Keong defense himself and push the one of the smallest size kids fell down on the floor...Then they fight up again... Apple and I drag Keong and Chee Seng away and told them not to fight...

And those kids still wan to walk near to us to fight and I just shout 'What do you want?' and they start fight again... This time Chee Seng got beaten more serious... the red t-shirt hit his ear, eye and the white t-shirt kick his stomach then Chee Seng fell down and he got scratches on his hand and his spec spoil... Luckily got a malay guy helped us... then we just stopped the fight... and we hold Chee Seng to LRT station...

Then I asked Keong, 'where is ur brother'? He said to me maybe he is at LRT... I just worried that his brother is still at the in front of the Pudu Jail with the kids fighting... After we reach LRT we saw Kenny is there... and then we ask Kenny where is Keong's brother??? then say many thing and I don't understand what is he talking about same as Keong... then Keong went out from the LRT station and find his brother... Apple and Chee Seng also when back 1st... I also walk back out from the LRT station and find his brother... Keong called his family and ask for his brother hp number by using my hp... because his hp is out of battery... Finally feel more relieve because his brother is safe... he already went back... Keong called his brother that time, his brother already in the LRT...

I don't understand what wrong with those kids??? so late still don't want to go back and sleep... come out and a gang of foolish kids and simply hit people without reason YOU THINK YOU ARE SO 'YENG' AR??? DAMN MOTHER FUCKING!!!

Gonna have a feeling

I don't care anymore!!!
As long as my study goes well is more important!!!
I wan to be a pretty girl
I wan to have a boy friend
I wan to have distinction on my study
I wan my sister , my mom and my grandmother live comfortable

That why I go for work...
To slim down XD muahahhaa
To know more friends
To earn more pocket money so I can buy thing for my family or gave them pocket money...

Love you all muacks XOXO

Third part time job + Problem

Many thing happen in these two weeks time work...

First I'm glad Wei Jia accompany me work at SOGO for one week, and felt sorry to her let her sleep on the floor for one week and also my house mate attitude... SORRY!

Second is I also do not know what have I done wrong? Can anyone tell me what is going on?

I think these is god gave me a challenge to face with it... but I choose to ran away from the problem... just pretend everything is fine!!!

Next is my family problem...
My dad is planning not to give me to go on study... He called me yesterday when I was at Times Square... He asked me whether my college got night class a not? That mean he call me work at the morning and at night go to class... He hint me many times that he does not have money to let me further study... But this is not my fault is all your own fault... because you had choose the way you wan!!!