Missing answer dream

Dreaming is always my hobby...
Is it a day dream or sleeping mode dream?
Most probably I love both...
Day dream is some kind of conscious thinking
Dreaming of your future partner, carrier, achievement and many more...
Just like a picture flashing in your mind one by one and it goes as you want.
For your information,
When your are sleeping and your mind goes on work, dreaming,
This time, it is just like a reality,
We are out of control,
Of time, place and who is the person with
As for myself, I can feel,
The hurt of pain, sensitivity, emotion and everything.

This time I just want to share with you all is
I don't know this dream is it connected with him?
Or it is my mind asking me to let go.
I know I'm stubborn
And I don't know why even I had an answer he is not my future,
But I still want to try out for the second time.
In the dream, we met at a place (it looks like old town) to have a drink and chit chating,
After we talk so much and he told me
"He does still loving me and always be but we both cannot be together,
(He cries and said it to me)
My reply is
"We really can't go back together like last time?"
He haven't got to answer my question and then I woke up already.
I try to sleep back to connect that dream but I fails...
There the answer was missing for so long that I wanted to know badly...
Maybe sometimes we don't know anything rather than everything.

Thank You God

Ya previously I wrote a page called "Forever Playful Girl"

I do admit until now I'm so playful than last time

Hahaha...

This year is my going to be my 21st years old girl~

Hurmm... sadly I still haven has a loving bf

But not really for sure he is not or going to be my bf

Whatever, I just want him to be my side, be my friend.

I'm glad to met him! 

Just thank God let me met him such a wonderful friend.

I feel safe when I'm beside him.

Secondly, there is something still bordering me in my mind.

my Mr. X last year just recently I met him,

It was so nervous and damn happy to meet him

And also we go Malacca for trip together,

I really so happy but one thing it really confuse me,

Is he still have me inside him?

But after that night we became stranger again.

Am I frightening him or is he frightening me?

I really miss him so much.

What a sweet memory with him.

Sometime when I think back,

I would laughter out by myself.

Could you please give me an answer?

By the way, I'm sorry I made that promise to you and if I couldn't make it!

Whatever the answer is,

I will accept it!

So call a friend

Some things really make me changed differently
Sometime I don't even recognize myself
Am I doing the right thing?
I knew the answer is NO
Have I regret?
The answer is NO too
The only things is, I trusted the wrong person.
The so what call good friend!
Sigh... the only thing what I regret told her about my past.
What she done to me only I realize,
Something that pulls me near to reality so realistic!
I can be still good with you but,
I'm so sorry maybe it couldn't be as good as last time...
Thing has changed, NO, is I have changed!
That may be is a tiny thing to you,
But is a important thing to me...
I told you is just meant to let u know and listen
Not for you to make a joke to me or reminding me something.
Yes! I'm so 小气 that ME!
Whatever I am what I am!
So, please don't be big mouth and sometime some thing that can't make joke...
Think before you do.

H&M

Today, I just bought a singlet at H&M!
Isn't it simple and pretty?
And it's price is quite reasonable at RM59.90
I love it so much =)

Goodbye my chubby M

When I try to love you more,
I figure out many unexpected things
When I try to ignore it,

I feel like I'm stupid

And give you the another chance to let you do it again

When you admit it,

I forgive you

But with a lot of question in my mind!

Goodbye my love

Thanks for your sweet memory we have~

Stay Tuned

It is the time to let go or continue?

He lied to me so much

And yet many things he told me before it does not make sense

One lie close with another lie...

Right now,

I can just say that he gave me just a short term happiness

But if I look forward in the long term relationship...

He will may not give me happiness

I'm not looking down of his abilities

But he is still not stable enough

In term of his job and thinking...

And maybe I expect him to do too much

Forever Play Girl

That who I am...

Play Girl for twenties!

PLAY means LEARN

Never ever serious on one thing

I admit it! I'm a playful girl...