I'm so in love with him!

Do you have this experience before?
Each of every time I wanted to make a call or SMS to him,
He was one step earlier to call me when I just want to start taking up my phone.
If it is once or twice I would call it "coincidence"
But this is most of the time and what do this call? =)

He is the man I always dream about,
Who always take care of me, love me, pampered me.
Whenever I always look at him,
I always fall in love with him again and again.
He just like my other part of my magnet.
Whenever he goes I just want to stick with him.
I hope we are bless by everyone.
Thanks Bii! Always love you!

My Dream is My Wish!

I had a dream
I have been hallucinated in my own dream and what I always wish for.
I wish I'm a pretty lady with a healthy good looking body!
I wish I could have a single and available man who loves me so much!
I wish that this relationship is blessed by my and his friends and family!
And I always dream about it!

P/S: Btw any suggestion to reduce my weight? I know one of it is exercise =P Please leave comment below. Thanks!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Rumor's good or bad?

Do you know that rumors can make you good or harm you in the opposite way?
I learned my lesson for not putting barriers to anyone.
I can be friendly to everyone but people aren't so nice to you. Remember that!
Sometime you just wish to find a listener to tell what you feels,
But ended up your listener become your paparazzi and spreading your news all over the world.
Would they can just listen and forget? or just shut up?
People mouth is vicious.
As they are too free to busybody updating people news, they forgotten what is their purpose to be a listener.
They like to use your feeling and thought to make fun of and entertain the other's.
This really shows no respects on other's privacy!
That was why the elderly has a saying "Do not wash your linear on the public"
If there is something bad happen to you, you shouldn't tell anyone on what you feel to tell.
Choose people wisely to whom you tell.
If can, the ideal choice is tell no one.

Finding a Life Partner

Are you the potential guy? attractive guy? talkative guy? or my cup of tea?
I want to find a person who has similar interest with me.

How many out there are willing to do the same things as me?

My dream is to travel and explore the culture outside. Some adventure is not bad. Trying out some extraordinary activities (not paranormal!) such as hiking, camping, jungle trekking maybe flying fox ( I haven't try before). From my budget trip, Pattaya, I love flying with parachute with speed boat although it was a short distance flying in the sky, it was totally exciting! Memorable! I do not dare to experience on my own but if there is someone who accompany me or take a lead I will join in! This must be one of the life experience and you don't want to miss it! On the other hand, I actually don't like much social networking so you can see I prefer to make call rather than messages because most of the time they will sometimes misunderstand what I wrote in the message (=.=) that why I like face to face social rather than social networking. I'm trying to improve mother tough and other languages as well. Honestly I'm bad in making friends and social around. I will try to improve that.

I will try my best to fit in your world and try to experiences what you are experiencing,

But will you do the same to me?

Do you feel the same as me?

This is mostly happens on your first love.
Later, certain time or after your first one, you will not feel the same way as before.
A feeling to describe as sparkle.
As a touch on each other, skin to skin or lip to lip, you feel nervous, extra heart beats and some excitement.
I kinda admit! I do enjoyed it! and has been searching for it after my first love.
To feel falling in love again... I guess!
I thought every guy that successful to attract  a girls' attention may give the same result of these feel but I'm wrong maybe Yes for the beginning stage but it only lasted for less than a week then later it eventually got bored. (This is my so-called test drive) and this is why and one of the reason my x changes for less than a month.

Some question being asked to some of my friends
"Why he/she is the chosen one?"
"Why do you like him/her?"
"Which part of him/her that attracts you?"
Their feedback was THE FEEL! (Isn't it mysterious!)

They told me that when the feel of like towards love,

1. You will misses him all the time (I do but don't know how the guys feel)
2. Whatever topic can be talk (I don't think so, there will be some topic is filtered)
3. You will willing to scarify for him. (Maybe and depends on what)
4. Always give support (It is important for motivation and I need it very much)
5. Whenever you face difficulties, it will just disappear when you saw your love ones.(This is two guys told me before. It seems like I'm their calmer)

Is above statement true? For me it is almost 80% true.

There is one guy I met in somewhere, he always give me encouragement and comfort me when I'm nervous (I easily get nervous all the time and he knows me very well). He is my calmer. Whenever he is around, I feel safe & secure and able to be comfortable & being myself all the time in front of him. He the one who give me sparkle even we know each other for a certain time but until now each time an accidentally touches, the feel appears and I don't why. (I don't understand why we that doesn't work out?)
I am definitely misses him so much!

There is another guy also my dearest but so far I just can rate him "good" not excellence. He did everything like the first guy but just the feel was lesser. As I mention before, the sparkle does lasted that long or maybe... but somehow I feel lucky to have him around me. Thank you. Keeping in progress!

How to know that person really suit you?

Hey Bloggie,

Currently I'm very depressing and very unstable emotion...
I'm very confusing on what I want!
No one could understand and could talk too...
All I know the surrounding people will just give me comfort and just says "don't think so much"
I want advise, interpreting, analysis. (although, not even 50% I will follow, I just want a feedback on my current issue) Maybe I go to the wrong person who never had a relationship before or they are having such a loving life...

I really want relationship, who always have someone care about me, try to understand me, pampered me, calm me down, accompany me up and always there for me...
In a month or two my relationship always ended up with full stop.
I always having a short term relationship but I enjoyed most of the relationship (thanks all for creating memories together)
After a few weeks in a relationship, I will reconsider other factor on him (the requirement) such as:

1. Does him hardworking?
2. How high is his education level?
3. Can he afford my expenses?
4. Can I accept all his principle and bad attitudes?
5. Does he really loves me? (just for confirm that he never regrets to accept me!)

This is what normally in my mind for now!

Most of the time I'm being scared.
Someone treating me too good or I have been forgotten (by not finding me more than 2 days)
When someone is treating me too good, I'm afraid the next moment in a minute or two all had gone and nightmare is coming. Next, my mind will automatically think a lot of assumption or if things. (So guys always let your girl know where is her position and let her know how important is she for you although it is annoying, it is the best way for your girl to stop thinking a lot)
When I'm scare, I will start to let go so no one will be hurt as our relationship is just started.
Maybe in the short period it is hurt but it must be end.
I'm a very selfish girl and this is my self protection for not getting hurt.
That is the reason each time I end my what so ever "ship" (friend or relation)

Recently I'm feeling bad bad bad...
I feel like I'm the destroyer.
Although is our relationship is over or temporary over (confuse), I'm still feel bad deep inside me.
I have many WHY question in my head to ask but I do not dare to ask...
What happening over there? You never want to give me a proper answer.
Just let me guessing and guessing over here. Endless...
Feeling breathless. I try to not think about it but I couldn't.
Wish to end this up as soon as possible.

Exercise

Darn!
I really need to start my exercise!
Actually I love sports very much
But I don't do it alone
I would prefer someone accompany me to do exercise or some sport activities...
It's fun though!
Not really can have a group activities and get to know each others more...
I really loves it!
Although I'm shy at the beginning, I would like someone to lead me and encourage me.
So that I wouldn't be shy to let others know I'm bad with it...
But even though I don't know how to play, I would like to start with a try!
Never Try, Never Know!